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Labels: enough.by God's miracle, i successfully passed MOE interview and proceed on to nafa's. tis is de last and the crucial stage before fulfilling my dream. i went fer de interview yesterday and was stressed to see many more ppl r much more potential den me. i felt inferior n my mind went blank. truthfully, i didnt give in my best shot yesterday..i was stunt by de qn and fer such a long time i didnt draw. if i get pass tis final rd, all glory be unto God. i'll testify in front of ppl which i've not done so. i promise n i wun break it. many things happened n one of de days smth overwhelmed me n i almost give up again. things ard me also didnt turn out to be smooth..my grp of ppl seems to drifted away from God so badly tat it's so hard to pull them back. God,fer how much longer u can bear to see them suffer? im getting tired of these n i wanna see a miracle fast..i dunno whether to cry or not to cry fer them..i feel so NORMAL..nothing extraordinary to expect. tat's bad..revive my heart n their hearts once more..enough is enough devil..one day im gonna make u PAY WID UR LIFE fer wat u've done.
well,it's jux another v'day which pass by continuously fer years.haha. anyway, HAPPIE VALENTINES' DAY. hmm..my interview wasnt tat bad nor gd..there were times i stammer n there were times where im confident.de help penguin gave didnt came out! wasted my whole evening trying to rmb..well,maybe next time i can put it to use. was carrying my canvas round n round de whole morning..squeezing into crowded mrt and had ppl staring at mi from head to toe.how i hate tis feeling..i saw other candidates' art pieces,i felt threatened and demoralised..some look like 20 plus yrs and seems like they got better chances of being chosen. their pieces were very nice too. by how i persented myself in front of de panels,i guess de onli way i can get in is through God's miracles..results will be out in abt 2 weeks times. on de way home i was initially very upset.but all of a suddenly i dun feel sad at all.instead..peace fills my heart and i dun seem to care much abt de results.God,whether i pass or fail i'll still praise u. i feel like gg fer a run now..die..it sounds familiar. and if i run now i'll be getting a heat stroke cox its 12 noon. -_-'' maybe i'll wait till later ba.there's so much things gg through my mind.
interview in another 9 an a half hours time. damn nervous. today's FOF prac.. half de class manage to finish all while half onli finish halfway..n CONGRATES im in de 2nd catagory. -.-'' i screwed up my machine weights n should be passing my free weights ba.. morning's gonna cont de prac but it clashes wid my interview!! wat should i do?? haha.im willing to go all de way fer tat interview but how am i gg to explain?? im already de target to be gunshot by my teachers any moment now..Lord,grant me de favour in de panels eyes..my gosh~im feeling demoralized after wat jess said in de morning. my confidence immediately dropped to de MAX..anyway,wish me all de best. hallellujah..God will be by my side, amen?? ARGH~!
yo earth-lings!! HAPPIE CHINESE NEW YEAR~!! althought its kinda late >.< anyway, tis yr seems to be more boring then previous yr..went fer visitation w/o talking to anybody there..reunion dinner was fine.wid steamboat and teppanyaki..except wid my dad's sudden invitation of 3 china men from his workplace was here fer dinner too.but we sat at separate tables..is tat counted as reunion too??haha.sat went to polar's house fer visitation den to parrot's.. we ate and played some games..kinda slacking de whole day ba.. holidays seems to pass so fast as usual and 2molo im having a prac exam. most probably i'll either screw it up again or a jux pass grade. i admit tat i indeed dislike my course and dun like de feeling of doing prac wid ur body demo n remembering each and every step of it. praying hard tat my interview tis coming wed would be a success as im getting sick and tired of tis kinda lifestyle and its seriously affecting my walk wid God tremedously. i jux wanna get out asap n do smth i like and fer Him too. God,see my hearts' desire n i wanna get ur attention once more.de numbness n emptiness is coming back again wid a greater resistant to overcome. help, anyone??
btw,please tag cox my box is starting to collect dust le!!
Labels: confidence is wat i need
will there be more of this in the future??
Labels: happy yet nervouswent fer W.A.D service on sat and had annual children ministry meeting. one video tat de child was crying out to God abt his prayer and i had goosebumps thoughout de whole clip. tears also swelled up in my eyes while listening to their simple and powerful prayer. i really hope to reach out to children in de poorer countries who needed de Lord so much..but..i dun intend to serve it on a permenent basic..my dream is to stay in singapore to teach. and on tat same nite, a miracle happened. a few days before, i took de first step towards my dream.on sat nite, i received a letter from moe. i opened de letter wid my heart pouncing rapidly and pray to God. as i read until de sentence, "im pleased to inform you that you are short-listed for interview." i immediately jumped up and scream fer joy! my gosh my gosh my gosh!! i cant believe it sia..de thing i've been worrying abt fer de pass few days is over..next is de interview part..im nervous abt it..wat am i gg to say in front of de panels?? ppl say honesty and sincerity is de best..oh man..its after cny..God,my dream of 2 yrs plus..is tat de direction u wan me to head?
